On resentment

Resentment is like drinking poison and hoping the other person dies. We’re the only ones suffering when we hate or wish badly for others. Nobody cares. No one‘s coming to save you. You’re only hurting yourself when I use drugs and alcohol. I was saying FU to myself every day now that I’m in recovery I wish I got in sooner again but if I think like that, I get stuck in the negative thought loop everything happened for a reason, everything is the way it’s supposed to be at this moment. Let it go move on. For a long time I resented and hated my treatment centre for keeping me longer than I thought I needed to stay. I thought to myself I had 7+ years of recovery. Why do I need to stay 60 days in hindsight that time was just a blip on the radar and I’m so grateful for every moment I stayed I became willing after being beaten into a state of desperation and I needed to experience every single moment to get where I am today, recovery is simple not easy one day at a time I began to feel better and I trusted in the process. I wouldn’t turn in my worst days in recovery for my best days in Addiction. Until next time, I love you.